So much has occurred since I last updated this journal. So many life-changing events. I ended up dropping out of college, I've moved several times, I've been in legal trouble several times, living on the streets, drugs and drinking, relationships in and out, jobs here and there, and most recently the death of one of my best friends in a car crash which is what I blame for bringing me back to life and cleaning myself up. Many of the things on my last journal update needed to be updated and new things need to be added so here it goes ...

Kunst:

I have very little new artwork to upload so don't expect too much activity from me in that concern. However, I do plan on picking back up some of my older projects that I was working on before my leaving. They include:

Several Photo Series (which will mean dusting my camera off)
Tarot Series (will be steadily working on this series and will try to upload between 3-4 new tarot designs each month)

I am also in the process of cleaning out my current DA pieces and restricting my work in my gallery to what I consider some of my better work; the rest will be kicked to scraps.

Akustik Projekt:

I have a 6 song EP to show for my acoustic compilation disc. I have not worked on it as much as I'd have liked to reason being I lost my co-songwriter to the military. I would like to begin working on more songs now that I am back in my own studio. If anyone knows of persons who are interested in working with an acoustic solo artist or starting a rock/acoustic/oldies band in the Upstate NY, NW Penn area please contact me thru my email (mal_crane@yahoo.de).

Theories And Thoughts:

Such a disaster. I have not even picked up the pages to the book in months. My main co-writer has become indoctrinated with the military and continuously leaves for training. I have started to keep a journal that I write in once in a great while and do believe there are some ideas dealing with society, religion and politics within it but nothing other than that. I do still have all of the writing we had down however and plan to continue on once again. I am no longer putting a end goal date on this project as it has changed so many times. I also now plan to write and release it in stages throughtout my life so that I can continue to add on to previously released works. Our Yahoo! group [link] is still available to discuss the reasons for and information that will be contained in this book if anyone one wishes for more on this topic.

WEBSITE!!!

I do wish that this could be a possibility in the months ahead, however time is needed for such an endeavor. There will be a website in the future that contains all the information to keep everyone up to date just not in the near future.

My Stalkers:



My Clubs: (either am a member or hope to be by the time you read this)



I'm sure I'm missing information from this paragraph but I will be updating much more frequently now that I'm back. Please feel free to comment on my devi's as I do to so many of yours ...

I love you more than anything Brandi, i miss you ...

Listening to - Staind - Epiphany
Black Sabbath - Changes
Sugarcult - Memory
Marilyn Manson - Last Day on Earth
Linkin Park - Numb

There is so much changing right now so many things are not what they should (should?) be (what should they be?) Nothing is the same as it was and it seems like one half of my mind is trying to twist its way into an entirely new direction that i've never been before and the other half of my mind is screaming stop and getting ready to pull out the gun to shoot itself in the temple ... do i want the one half of my mind to kill itself out of memory? i hope that choosing the new direction will not change my life for the wrong (wrong?) reasons ...


Check out these people:

LISTENING TO - Black Sabbath - Changes
Sugarcult - Memory

So much is changing I feel like one part of my mind is twisting itself into an entirely different direction than the other part wants to go. Everything is different from what it should (should?) be (what should it be?)

I don't know anymore everything in my life is taking me in an entirely new direction something that i've never thought could happen

Ich liebe Dich ~JynxedWings

Check out my digital work at ~ AbSiNtHeArt

Working on some oil paintings and drawings ... stay tuned for more ...